— Thomas Cardinal Wolsey (via cultivate-solitude)
I honestly think I should start thinking before I open my mouth. Sure it may seem like I’ve moved on, but to tell you the truth… I wasn’t thinking. My mind was elsewhere. What was I thinking? Why did I have the guts to leave? I didn’t know how good I had it until the most perfect thing I had was gone. I guess I don’t regret doing what I did. But somehow I want things to be back to normal. I wish I could just open my eyes and all of this would be gone. Everything that happened in the last 6 month could just rewind. Maybe I’m jumping into conclusions. Maybe all I need is closure. I don’t know. These memories are hurting me. I’m suffering. I’m sorry I put you through all the shit I shouldn’t of had. I guess I get what I deserve. I guess ignoring me is whats right. But one day, when you’re ready. I hope we can talk things out. Get things straight. I really need to get stuff off of my chest so that we both can do what we wanna. MMM, I miss you. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life… I hope you read this someday… You know who are are.